Well, this is what, the third or fourth blog I have started? I wonder if this one will be as neglected as the last few. I hope that it will not, in fact I mean to keep up with this blog, this little chronicle of my life.
I tend to begin a new blog, used to be journal, when I feel like I am starting fresh. So many notebooks in my possession have the first twenty or thirty pages crammed with words and feelings. And then they are forgotten, often along with all my new resolutions. I am just not a very stick-to-it person. It's a horrible flaw. I can't remember which book or which character of L. M. Montgomery's said, "Either you are born with gumption, or you are not." I paraphrase. I was not born with gumption. I might even have negative gumption. I am a person of false starts. Do overs. But, I keep doing over. And over. And over again. I hope and pray, someday, God will settle me into a way, a routine of doing the right thing at the right time.
Consistency. I pray for consistency.
I suppose that I have my own sort of inconsistent consistency. I do always keep on trying, even when I mess up. I guess that all I can do is keep on praying and keep on going. Life is a long walk.
What I hope this chronicle will record is some change for the better in me. A clear and honest picture of where I am and where I can go with my next step. I want it to be a hopeful place in my life. I want it to reflect the new life I am about to begin. I want my new life to be worth reflection.
Well, that's all I have to say in this, my first post on my new blog! More to follow.
Jenny
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